wait...

y always wan wait...
wait wait...
after despair..

i is play girl...
i noe i not naivete...
i got experience...

so make me like tat...
i noe...

thank you so much...
love u...

changes myself

wanna changes myself...

dun wan do be before myself again...

wan do making myself shine...

in front ppl...

dun wan do be stupid girl again...

dun wan do be country girl again....

start now wan slim...

control food...

special bee...

pretty bee...

shine bee...

JUDY GARLAND - Over the Rainbow - 1943 Command Performance

Put Down...

i succeed put down...

no miss again...

no worry again...

no care again a...

i really put down...

i really forget this...

i really can do it...

i really be strong in this part love a...

bee successful to do it...

bee very strong to face it...

bee very hard to endure it...

bee very hard to accept it...

but bee already do it...

bee u very well done to face it...

bee u very good...

bee gambateh...

he no need me...

he wan "eng" only...

bee dun wan he again a...

bee forcus in study 1st ...

dun wan love again...

love is lie ppl thing...

love is play ppl thing...

love is no good thing...

so bee gambateh a...

to face all thing...

happy to face all thing in my life...

smile always...

Shopping days...

although today is start study day...
but all lecturer is not teaching...
only say nonsense only...
n some lecturer is cancel his class...

so today very free...
n early bac home d...

so us plan go to megamall shopping...
very siok o....

us go watch movie "A Team"....
this movie is funny, very nice...
i love this movie...
when the helicopter 360rotate is very nice part...
hihi...

i also succeed buy the coat...
i very happy...
i wan it very more day d...
hihi...

but i wan prepare the 1st law quiz...
bcos friday wan quiz...
i very scare...
hope is not the quiz...
hope lecture is forget this thing...
hihi...

bankrap....

1st day start class...

also finish money...

all money to settle us d 'mangkali payment'...

omg a....

cant to use la...

save la...

money money....

money money come to find me....

dun run again...

sem 2 holidays....

holiday...

is unhappy holiday...

bcos confrontation many unhappy thing...

first...

before holiday unhappy thing...

second...

after holiday unhappy thing...

first

is him hurt my heart...

but i accept...

bcos him is not me d...

him is belong to a good girl d...

i very like him...

but i noe he n me is not ending d...

he is play only...

this all i noe...

but i cant to control my mind...

after he leave me...

i very very sad...

but i wan be strong...

bcos i got many thing wan to do...

when he leave me...

i also grow up something...

in my life he is not important...

money in my life is very important...

but sometime i have miss him...

but this all is normal la...

i can forget him in my life...

but wan use some time...

i wan change him to be normal frend...

not important...

is he change me...

second

is scold ppl life...

i very very very unhappy...

bcos start my holidays...

i bac to my home...

everydays is scold ppl life...

my father...

everyday scold us...

everydays...

i feel be irritated...

u true or wrong he also scold u...

u chatting or free he also scold u...

everyting he also scold u first...

cant to discuss...

cant...

cant to revolt him...

father y u be lik tat...

y...

i feel very hard...

i very tired...

us wan to communication to u...

but us scare...

us look ur face...

us very very scare...

when we happy or unhappy wan shares to u...

but us scare...

us cant to communication good wit u...

when i start my sensible...

i feel u is everyday is scold us...

is everyday...

u give us feel is scare u...

is not very love u...

when i move out live...

i will learn how to autocephaly...

but sometime i also miss the home...

but when i bac to home...

i see u still in scold ppl...

the scene i very very unhappy...

very sad...

when i study...

i stress...

bac home also see u scold ppl...

my stress is increase to thousand again...

i cant to rest...

i have many days cant to sleep...

when in hostel...

i bethink my result...

i bethink him...

this all affect me cant to sleep...

i think bac home can give me to rest...

but it is not...

i feel very very very stress...

feel very very sad...

unhappy....

family...

know y i wan to leave here....

bcos i dun wan live in the scold life...

i very sad...

i very hard...

i very unhappy....

i very stress...

i cant to maintain cantinue...

i very tired...

i wan rest...

y cant live to happy...

y cant live to not scold ppl life....

y....

i not have the cose frend...

not a lovely family...

all not...

only myself...

i very very very unhappy, sad, hard.....